It has been so long since the last time I started writing over here again. There are so many things happen in my life and I really don't how and where to begin with.

Have you ever think if life can be easy? You don't have to work that much and yet you have the income to sustain yourself? You can do whatever you want without worrying about money? When money comes into the picture, it will contradict with what you want in your life. Will you put your passion first or money first?

There are so many things in we life that dream of or we want to do but..... alot of times, we are unable to do so. Or rather I say we need great determination and motivation to work towards our goal.

The Secret by Rhonda Byrne, talking about the law of attraction, dream what you want and you will get what you dream. Do you believe? Well, I believe. Maybe I am not trying hard enough hence I still have not fully get what I want. There is one thing I had achieve is my health. Ever since I was 12, I was diagnosed with Lupus. What is that?

Okay, a short explanation:
Lupus is an autoimmune disease where the body's immune system becomes hyperactive and attacks normal, healthy tissue. This results in symptoms such as inflammation, swelling, and damage to joints, skin, kidneys, blood, the heart, and lungs. (Taken from: http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/info/lupus/) Ha! If you want me to explain, I also don't know how.

Knowing my health is like that, there are so many things that I want but I don't even dare to dream or even know how to achieve it. If now, a person comes and tell you it is easy. Will you give a try? Given 3 to 5 years, you will achieve what you dream of, fulfil all your goals. What will you think? Do you also have the same thoughts as me that flash through in my head? A fraud? Serious? Sounds so unrealistic.... And of course, it was all in my head! And which means what I have done all these while is wrong? I had spent too much time trying to achieve what I want to achieve.

With all these doubts, I stepped into it, not knowing if I can achieve it, can't really see my future, don't even dare to dream of what I have always wanted...... I don't even know if this can works... A person like me, with no confident, never like to talk to people... Now, I need to learn all these. Or rather, I have to do all these despite I don't want to. It is a fear I need to overcome. A fear I choose to believe I can't do it all these while.

In order to dream what I dream of, to do what I want to do, to be who I want to be, to give what I can give, I need money to fulfil. Till now, I really hope I have made the right decision. Don't worry... it is not anything illegal. Will keep writing as I work on it. Just wish me success.